I'm left with nothing, few personal possessions, no home, no job, my daughter went off to college and nothing to look forward too. It's now January 2008, I've been out of work for 5 months and at this point, just bored and feeling hopeless! I had given up all hope of going to Belize to the be a missionary. I had prayed and prayed, put fleece after fleece out to the Lord to show me what He wanted from my life and NOTHING! I was so frustrated, I felt like my life was at a stand still, no where to move either forward or backward, nothing to even look forward to.
Then it happened not one but two job opportunities, this must be it! The Lord is finally going to put me to work, if I'm not going to the mission field I'll at least be working (or so I thought).
First, my old company called me back, not for the same position and not for even close the money. However, I decided because I really like the person who would be my boss I would go in and talk about what he wanted to offer me. I showed up and as I walked through the company doors immediately I knew it was not where I was suppose to be. At the end of the interview/talk, I told him I couldn't take the job. I wouldn't be able to give 100% because I didn't feel like it was where the Lord wanted me. He totally understood and said a job would always be available to me.
Then a position I had dreamed about since I became a Christian. I had an interview with God's Bible School and College to work in the Academy. I had earned my bachelors in Elementary Education years before and never taught. I wanted to work for GBS and had no idea how to even go about getting on with them. This was where Montessa was going to college so it would be perfect. I could be working where she was going to college and teaching, the thing I wanted to do. I went to the job interview so excited and needless to say I left very disappointed and heart broken. I wasn't offered a position.
Once again NOTHING......Driving home I remember talking to God and at this point begging Him to show me what it was He wanted me to do with my life!!!! Ugh, frustration had completely set in.
That evening I was on IM speaking to Clara, the Wade's daughter who I met when I had visited Belize the previous March. For some reason, I asked her how their school was doing. She said, "mommy wishes the Lord would send us a teacher". I don't think I ever realized they needed a teacher. I finished my conversation with her that evening and said good-bye. I remember asking my aunt to pray that the Lord would open the door if that's where I was supposed to go. The next morning I got a phone call from a lady at my church whose husband was in Belize with the Wades at that time. She said, "David needs you to call him in Belize." I called Belize and David said, "The Wades would like to know if you would come to Belize to teach at their school?" They weren't able to pay me but they could provide an apartment and food. I said yes and asked my aunt to go with me to help, she said, "yes".
Within 2 weeks, we were packed and on our way to Belize, out of the blue going some place I completely didn't expect and with a family I barely knew. God worked everything out, the trip (a young man we met on our Israel trip, "Jaimee" picked us up from the bus station in Michigan and took us to the airport the next morning). The finances, He provided the money we needed for living expenses the entire time we were there because we didn't go under a church, we had to support ourselves. When traveling through Mexico we had no problems, even with the language barrier. God is good....took care of us every step of the way.
It seems as though just when I gave up, lost my faith is when God stepped in. I know His timing is perfect and looking back now I know why I had to wait. If you've given up on a prayer, don't worry He knows all about it. His answer may be No, but it could also be Yes, just not right at this moment. Keep the faith and know He hears you and always wants what's best for you!
My next few post will be about my experience as a missionary in Belize, God did some wonderful things during that time and humbled me as well.....stay tuned!
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